I am really in a big dilemma and already I have spent around 21 years on this earth and couldn’t make out “What is Friendship?”. I always ask myself Does anything like friendship exist?. To remove my confusion I thought may be Google will be the best solution. But I think it increased my confusion to a level which I can’t even describe. Google said “Friendship is a feeling of comfort and emotional safety with a person. It is when you do not have to weigh your thoughts and measure words, before keeping it forth before your friend. It is when someone knows you better than yourself and assures to be your side in every emotional crisis. It is when you can sleep fighting and get another morning with a better understanding. Friendship is much beyond roaming together and sharing good moments, it is when someone comes to rescue you from the worst phase of life. Friendship is eternal. To experience what is friendship, one must have true friends”.
I couldn’t bear it any more and decided not to read further. Then I started to think of people whom I met in the last 21 years of my life. I know that my experience in this area is quite bitter. As a name sake I have MANY friends who really help me out, who are really somewhat concerned for me, whom I THINK I can rely on(I JUST THINK). . I don’t think I have friends whom I can really call “A FRIEND” who can match the Google definition. But somehow I managed to include a few actually a very few names in this list.
I am not at all in a mood to criticize Google for this definition may be there will be people who are lucky enough to have some special people in their lives whom they can call friends. But for me the description of a friend goes as follows:
Because of so many bitter experiences: For me the definition of a friend is somewhat different which I would like to share. For me a friend is obviously a person but he/she is a imaginary or fictitious kind of person whom you think you have whenever you need or is there to share your joys and sorrows but really don’t exist. You’ll always be in a disbelief that far from home you have someone to help you out. But surely whenever you are in a problem or cannot make out what to do next that is your are in a situation of dilemma you will be helped by only your family and only those are the group of people who are meant for you.
I remember how I ignore my father’s words when he says “yeh dost-vost kuch nhi hote”. Actually I have started to realize that this is true the day I left my home for hostel. But finally today something happened which drove my mind towards this and I have realized that papa ki baat mein dum toh h. There are always people whom you THINK they are your friends.
I have almost stopped believing in this relation or I must say I am still in search of a true friend.
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